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Start my book - I have a couple ideas but I just need to start writing it. I don’t know if I’ll finish it this year or in ten years from now but I have to start doing something.
Complete at least 5 things on my Bucket List - I want to start carrying the list around with me and just look at it every time I can so I can remind myself that life can end just like that. I could drop dead any minute and I will never have done half the things on there.
Continue to communicate with my friends - I want to use up the stamps I had left over from my Christmas cards and send a few letters to my friends just to remind them that I’m thinking about them.
Find another job, or two - I like the job I have now but it pays horribly and it doesn’t happen as often as I wish it would. I need to find a regular job and start saving for school.
Finish Paranormal Host/Love Alone - I hate myself more than anyone for abandoning these stories. Especially Paranormal Host. I almost want to rewrite the whole thing. But I write better under pressure and I haven’t had much of it in the past few months.
Move out - Pretty self explanatory. But I must find a job first. For someone who has moved out TWICE in the past year and each time returned, I have to make my next move more permanent.
Visit Seattle with my mom! - If I don’t do anything except this, I will be completely fine with it. Not only is Seattle one of my dream visit’s but it’s something I can do with my mom.
Lose some junk in the trunk - I think it’s pretty cliche to want to lose weight as a New Year’s Resolution but I have faith in myself and I have the tools necessary. Even though it’ll be hard, I will do it.
Start making plans again - I need to get my motivation back. I went from being a psychotic planner to nada. I think I got stuff done a lot more often when I was the other way, even if I was also disappointed just as much.
Pick up the paranormal again - Try to beat lucid nightmares and start reading again. I enjoyed it, I don’t know why I let it scare me away.
I hate calling them resolutions because they are stuff I have been exercising for a long time now. These are not things I came up with just because it’s the New Year. I believe you can make goals for yourself at any point but I wanted to have this on here because my last goal for the year is to write more on here and continue to be more active with my brave-lion account.
I don’t want to just have a ‘photographic blog’ with badly filtered images that nobody cares about. I want to rebuild the community I used to have on these blogs. Hopefully this determination doesn’t wear off and even if it does, I’ll have this post to remind me to keep going :)
Happy New Year lovely followers.
-Maria
Original unedited doodle found here.

"I change so much I don’t know how people keep up with me. I can’t keep up with myself."

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My thoughts

Letting someone go because you love them…

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I updated my links since some of you have lucid dreaming questions.

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I don’t think anyone understands how fast I would agree to move anywhere cold, isolated, barren. I would be the happiest person on Earth to live in Siberia. (If I was made for the cold.) It’s not the people in my life…it’s me.

Let’s catch up?

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So posting the tumblr crushes is a success. I’m glad that a lot of you have gone and followed these amazing blogs. And NO I don’t tell them I’m posting that or ask them to promote me in turn. I don’t do that.

Also I’m four away from my next goal and I’d just like to thank all of my followers. I know I’ve been M.I.A a few times and yet, I’ve seemed to retain some loyal followers.

Also if you’ve recently started following me and you like to read, and you also happen to love the paranormal, as well as Ryan Buell—-> I have a tumblr for just that. It’s my personal tumblr where I post my Ryan Buell fanfic.

Here

Have a lovely Sunday or Monday if you’re already there :)

I ran into my ex boyfriend two days ago at target and I was wearing my We The Kings t-shirt. Then his girlfriend (?) (Idk…I know her and we used to be friends but Idk if they’re dating) said that Linkin Park was the best band that ever existed. Not only is that presumptuous and false but I kindly pointed out that We The Kings is a really good band. Then he said, “No they’re not, I don’t really know who they are though.”

I remembered why we broke up and I told him I had to go, I walked five steps and I stopped at the books while he was still behind me with his friend. That was a clear fuck you right?

I’ve been on tumblr for a while and I kinda hate that I don’t talk to my followers. I would delete if it wasn’t for brave-lion.

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Lucid dreaming Night Six.

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the guy who works at rite aid is cuteeee. And I KNOW all we talked about was getting me a wellness card but there was chemistry ;) WATCH OUTT haha

I bet he has a girlfriend.

Lucid Dreaming night five.

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Lucid Dreaming night four.

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